lmfao. andre. :D
wtfudge.. i just pressed follow just 5 seconds ago.
AJ You better feel damn special..
although you’re not. =P
… just kidding on whatever suits better for you.
why is it a good day?
1. got to be review buddys with this girl im crushiin on.
2. got 85% on my midterm
3. good meeting for the website today.. got lots of ideas down.
4. why somewhat?.. because i had a test today and im not confident that i did well.
so i passed one of my scary tests and not only that…
the girl of my dreams is coming to San Francisco.. YEEEE!!!!!!
Life is getting better and better!
i’m thankful to God to whatever happened from end of april ‘til now.
i realized if we were still together… it’ll just distract me from my studies and maybe fail again because i have to entertain you.
i could finally say that you ending it was a good thing.. a very very good thing.
after july 7..
ON TO THE NEXT! - HA!
when the thought of romantic love first came through my brain i always pictured myself like how it would be in the movies, because that’s the only image i really ever had.
i had no choice but to look up to my future self as the romantic prince charming because that is what was pressed onto my brain since i was a kid.
this image of the perfect romeo is what i longed to be but as i grew up i started drifting from that image and the older i get, the more it got distorted.
i started to forget, i guess memory loss comes with age huh? but in all seriousness i thought i would be a better guy than what i am now.
i know we always wanted the best for ourselves and this one is nothing different.
i always fancied being with this one girl i had the biggest crush on since high school but after coming here(in Canada), that fancy started to become blurry like that water reflection jackie chan was talking about in karate kid.
don’t get me wrong, i am not an asshole or so i’d love to think.. but i guess you can say im a failure when it comes to love. i’ve had 2 ex-girlfriends and my longest one was 6 months. ahah
im not good at keeping them, i never cheated and my last ex… i gave her everything and trust me.. it was my everything.. only to be left behind for another guy.
i acted like it was in the movies, i was super romantic, i was super corny… and she loved it but i didn’t know that just like the movies… her fondness of my chivalry will end after the credits.
do not fall for me.. if you do, it’s either you’ll leave me.. or maybe by some odd event, i’ll leave you. i dont think im meant to be a romeo, maybe not right now.
sometimes it makes me think.. why doesn’t it work out?
and i could only come to two conclusions:
1. i need to learn more when it comes to relationships… since ive only gotten used to flings and nothing long-term? or..
2. maybe that dream girl of mine you know? that girl i had the biggest crush on during high school(well i still like her, i loved her.. and theres a chance that if she goes to san francisco i would try my luck and pursue her heart?) maybe it never worked out with anyone else because my heart is waiting for her
no matter what the reason is, im tired.. im tired of getting hurt.
just like omarion’s ice box, well i got my own box.. its summer right now so it wont be made out of ice but its a box alright..
so for now.. do not fall for me
im not the romeo i thought i would be..