I am a klerksdorp sphere

“These things I have spoken to you, that My joy may remain in you, and that your joy may be full” —John 15:11

I read the description on the utmost.org but I think God wants me to take something different from this verse today…

What is Jesus’ joy? what is my joy?

I believe that Jesus’ joy is the cross, how His sacrifice has saved us from our sins. Now what is my joy? Is joy even the same as happiness?

From how I see it, happiness is a state of mind, a temporary feeling… it is not like we’re happy all the time but joy however - Jesus’ joy and our joy however is our life and how we live it.

I know now that having a joyous life is living according to God’s command. That as His servant, seeing my life as a pleasing sacrifice is my joy.

How much do I love God? Are the things I am going through for His glory gives me joy that is full?

I do not regret leaving the things I got used to… sometimes things maybe hard but as long as I stay true to God - His joy will remain in me. 

• Adele
• Regina Spektor
• Cat Power
• Alicia Keys
• Corinne Bailey Rae
• Fergie
• Katy Perry
• Nicki Minaj

There used to be a Celine Dion there somewhere…

“Do not rejoice in this, that the spirits are subject to you, but rather rejoice because your names are written in heaven” —Luke 10:20

August 30, 2011

What do I really aim for? What is it that makes me feel accomplished?

Is it the things I have done for others? for the Lord? Is it the way I am living under His light and following His ways? or is it my relationship with Him?

I have always known that good deeds alone cannot save a person but sometimes I get lost in this idea. That I sometimes feel accomplished because of my service to God, on how I play drums for Him every Sunday or my service as a CYN leader… that is because it is easy. It is easy to believe that works are enough to please God BUT the truth is… it isn’t.

The very thing that will save me is my relationship with God.. on how I maintain that communication, on how I get to know Him on a regular basis, on how I do not stop loving Him. 

The goal here is not to be the most useful person for God but to be really close to Him. It is the relationship that matters more and the usefulness will follow because if we are close to Him, His will, will soon follow.

To sum it all up… doing my quiet time is a much greater accomplishment than playing the drums during a Sunday service.

Relationship is much much more important than usefulness.

ps. clever picture eh? do you get it? :)

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I will not think negatively.

Instead, I would like to thank you…

because at some point in the past, you listened.

“When you pray, go into your room, and when you have shut your door, pray to your Father who is in the secret place; and your Father who sees in secret will reward you openly” —Matthew 6:6

August 23, 2011

Before I didn’t take this verse seriously… I always thought that as long as you pray, that is good enough. But I see the meaning of this now; just like how I did when I liked this girl… I would always have the best conversations at night - where I am alone and it would be just me and her on the phone. It was significant, refreshing and… intimate.

What I have learned with my spiritual journey is that quiet times are a privilege just like having the opportunity to talk to that girl you like one on one… God too is a prize. Having the chance to talk to Him in an intimate manner, where it is just me and Him… I get lost.

I get lost in His presence and it is a wonderful feeling… nothing matters at that time but Him because I am away from the distractions this world has. For that brief moment of 10 to 15 minutes, I am at peace.

I used to see doing this as a chore but it really gives a whole ‘nother different understanding when I do this out of love. I enjoy it. I get a chance to talk to my God and honestly… I completely see it as a privilege because not many people are able to do it.

Just like my post yesterday… I love you Lord. 

No one creates their own posts anymore?

I must be so out of the loop on this one.

“I indeed baptize you with water … but He … will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and fire” —Matthew 3:11

August 22, 2011

The verse speaks something completely different to me today.

I have been… somewhat carrying myself lately. I have relied on my own strength, my own push and I always felt demoralized. I feel like I am about to fail in terms of the plans that is set before me, I felt like they’re my plans once again and that God has been somewhat distant in terms of what I should do next.

Just like what I’ve done before, I know I should rely on God but my concerns and worries made me not see that I should ALWAYS trust in Him.

I’ve been caught up with my emotions lately and how unmotivated I am and how I was stressing on the near future because I am about to graduate my program that I forgot that this was all God’s plan and He has my back.

I learned and I thank God to the max right at this very moment for reminding me that I should let Him drive. I already got a bad sense of direction not only in real life but my spiritual life as well but why do this on my own when God can be my driver?

I am definitely coming back to God’s arms, His comfort.

I have made it this far with His grace, everything has been fine… why should I stop now?

Less of me and more of Him… where my own strength ends, that is where God begins.

That is what it means that nothing is impossible with God.

Thank you Lord for loving me so much, even though I fall so many times.

I am so in love with my God.

(sorry can’t find a picture that can relate… any suggestions?)